feeling dunno wat....

argh everything sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shit everything!!!!!!!!!!!
everything pisses me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dunno y !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dam it !!!!!!!!!!!
wat is wrong wif me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant take dis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!
i seriously dunno wats wrong wif me......
help me someone pls...........
well..
anw..
today started out ok........
den later i wen to hari's house for his bday party...
dunno y after coming back i felt an urge to shout out loud....
i felt like cursing and jus swearing....
after the party i felt that....
at home i shouted at my bro.........
i jus wen crazy at home.....
wats wrong wif me!!!!???
i dunno y......
maybe well coz i felt left out i guess..... i felt like well pissed off!!!!!!!
very pissed off during and after the party....
i mean
the party was well ok and fun and great....
but it just didnt felt wat i expected.....
i just like wen...
coo kooo...........
arrrrghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i didnt show it to everybody.......
i just kept it inside me........
maybe that is not so good....
maybe i should just shout it out!!!!
but i cant do it i just cant......
hopefully someone can guide me or console me......
welll im guessing no since im always lonely..
am i unsociable?? i have always been thinking bout that
everytime i see people talkin togeder, or goin out to catch a movie,
or goin to parties...
i dunno y...
is somethin wrong wif me????
pls tell me..
is it my looks or wat??
im so confused and sad rite now.....
if der is i hope someone will speak up and tell me....
den ill change for the better.....
but im guessing no one really bothers.....
to tell everyone the truth...
only hari noes how i feel...
i told him...
he noes...
im always a lonely guy...
at school u may see me like a happy go lucky person...
actualy im not....
its just that i just wan to be a friend people will loook up to...
i wan to be a friend that helps people...
i wan to be a friend that helps u in ur time of need.....
i wan to be a friend that is appreciated.....
this is my confession although people will look at me differently from now on...
i don't think it will matter....
since no one cares....
there are a few friends of mine who cares..... to those friends i would like to say thx a million....
u guys/gals have shed light on my dark and hollow life.....
argh crap..
there i go crapping bout myself....
told u guys i was crazy........